prevention

have u ever had a bad experience and in the future it prevents you from undergo the same process again, it is like looking at a mirror where the bad reflection scares the hell out of you.
it hard being in this situation, because you really want to do something but there is a two sided wall, it is ego on one side and fear on the other side.
so as an act of prevention like or not you have to turn your back and walk away instead of climb the wall.
it is not about do not want to take any risk but past and hurtful experience(s) taught you to not take the risk if you dont want to undergo the same hurtful experience again.

the first or the second time you might think that things are going to be better in the future but if every single time it ends up with the  same result, you will stop believing and stop giving chances to yourself and others.